Dear Future Love

Dear future love,

Know that I have been praying for you. Know that I am optimistic that I will find you.

Know that you will find me scarred by life's harsh realities. Know that my heart has been broken a few times.

I am far from perfect. I have mood swings, crazy mood swings. I cry for no reason at all when I am PMS-ing. Sometimes I want to hole up in my room and not talk to anyone.

But I hope you will love me despite all that I don't have.

I hope you will make me feel that I am the most beautiful woman in the world.

I hope you won't make me doubt my worth.

I hope that you make me number one.

Not that I need you to validate me, but sometimes it feels good to be able to lay down all the armor and be vulnerable in someone's arms.

I will wait for you. In my loneliness, I will mend all that has been broken. I will be the woman that I will be proud of. I will let go of the baggage of the past. I will forget all of the hurt, all of the memories. I will be strong while I wait. Because you will be worth it.

I am scarred yes, but you will find me whole.

In turn, I will be your biggest fan.

I will keep your secrets.

I will adore your quirks.

I will cover your faults.

I will give you foot massages at the end of a tiring day while you recount how stressful the day was.

You will lead. You will choose. You will decide.

And I will support you all the way.

We will have our silly inside jokes.

We will have our fun times.

We will remain 25 through the years we grow old together.

Dear future love, I am here. I will take care of myself as I wait for you in Allah's perfect time. 


  1. ^_^ kakilig naman tong post na to! Dear future love of Ayee, don't you dare hurt her!!! >:)

    1. Kakakilig ba? All these words are coming from a place of pain. But we are optimistic, so everything will be oaky In Shaa Allah.

  2. My heart. I needed to read this. Thank you for this, Ox. Yes, in Allah's perfect time.

    1. Tiwala lang. :) In the mean time, we have to be positive. How else can we brave the unknown alone? And it's not about finding the perfect person, but being the perfect person for that somebody.

  3. My heart. Did you write this for me? Hehehe. Yes, in Allah's perfect time. See you soon, Ox.


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